I am leaving for Arizona friday for a mission trip to visit the Native American Indians again. I am so torn because as excited as I am to go, I want to stay home even more. I commit to things because I believe in what I am doing and want to be a small part of fixing a big problem. Then it's time to pay the piper and I have to sacrifice being with my family that I can't stand to be away from. I cancelled going to youth group tonight because I can't get enough of Steve between now and Friday morning.
I guess it comes down to this. Do I stop serving God and helping a cause I believe in, or do I go and realize it's only a week and I'll be back. I know I am anxious but I am having terrible anxiety about leaving. Maybe it wasn't so bad last year because Adam was with me. Maybe it's because I just went to camp two weeks ago without my girls.
This is my time to be with my family. I have tomorrow to serve. I have made a decision, if I can't serve with my Husband and or children, it will have to wait. In the meantime, I'm leaving on a jet plane.
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